It isn’t very often that my days can be described as “very good” but today has been one of them. I slept well and only woke at lunchtime. A good sleep always makes me feel better. A friend came to visit in the afternoon and she stayed for three hours. I coped well though I was getting tired by the time she left. However, I walked with her for a bit and enjoyed just being outside in the fresh air. It has been a lovely day for a change. Was a bit weepy when I started to talk to my friend about my life on nitrazepam but I think that is just a normal reaction to what has happened rather than a benzo withdrawal reaction.
Had to rest for a while in bed but I notice that I am recovering much more quickly nowadays and half an hour to an hour is usually enough for me to get some energy back. I used to collapse into bed after visitors feeling dreadful from the effort but that doesn’t happen any more. After having something to eat, I did a little bit of dusting (my bedroom) and later on I went out for another walk and managed twice round the complex. Tonight it was fairly easy walking, my legs didn’t feel particularly heavy, indeed it felt almost normal.
If only every day could be like today. But it will be soon.