I am feeling much brighter tonight. The symptoms lifted this afternoon and I am once again able to type, talk on the phone and listen to the radio and music. What a wonderful release. It really is like coming out of a dark place and emerging into the sunshine. I can’t wholly explain it but my brain shuts down and I am enclosed inside myself to a large extent, only aware of all the strange sensations in my brain and body. I can only remember being ill and can only foresee illness in the future. This is in spite of knowing that it will pass. These episodes really affect my memory. I was at the dentist on Tuesday and coped well. Now I have little recollection of it. I don’t think it is dementia. I certainly hope not. It is all tied up with benzodiazepine withdrawal.