I can hardly believe it is almost a year since I started this blog. I was so full of optimism. I had imagined I would soon be ready to leave the Benzobuddies forum where I had kept a blog since 2014. I thought I would soon be blogging about getting back into life. Little did I know I would still be in bed a year later. Progress has been so painfully slow and I am now much more realistic about the future. Recovery is going to take a long time, maybe another year, two years or more. I have come to terms with that now. I wish it were otherwise. So I guess my blogging here is going to be pretty boring for quite a long time yet. But every little improvement brings great relief and hope for the future. There really is no comparison between how I feel now and how I felt for the first 2-3 years. So in a few years time I hope there will be no comparison to how I feel now. Let’s see. It might just we worth waiting for.