I retired in 2012 and thought I would be spending my time meeting friends for coffee and lunch and travelling the world. Well, a bit of it at least. I did manage to fly to London and New York to enjoy the music of the best rock band in the world – The Rolling Stones.
Then life came to an abrupt halt. I have spent the best part of five years in bed suffering from protracted benzodiazepine withdrawal syndrome or a benzodiazepine-related brain injury which is a more accurate description and all because my GP suggested I stop taking nitrazepam, a drug which I had taken for 40 years for myoclonic epilepsy. Withdrawal has been a dreadful experience but had undoubtedly been made slightly easier by the fact that my symptoms have been predominantly physical. I have not had to endure the terrible anxiety, panic or depression that many others suffer.
In fact I am now largely free from depression for the first time in four decades and I no longer suffer from epilepsy. I now only take prescription medication for hypothyroidism. I am however left disabled as a result of withdrawal and require a walking frame and wheelchair outdoors. My memory is also adversely affected and my ability to process speech and written text.
I hope my website can offer some hope and inspiration for anyone who is suffering from depression or who is enduring benzodiazepine withdrawal.
Enjoy the music!!
“It is never too late to be what you might have been.” George Elliot